For all of you who have been amazingly compassionate, I want to thank
you all so much!
I am keeping the candle shop open. It was never under
investigation anyways. They just questioned my shipping policy, I
told the investigators I had the shipping costs in my pricing. Yes I
did eat some of the shipping on some of the smaller orders, but it
all weighed out in the end. They understood that. But I feel it was
still included in the prosecutions statements to shed more doubt on
my mailing business.
I closed my mailing business by my decision, not because of the case
against me. It was becoming harder and harder to handle financially
due to the fact that my mailing equipment had been taken for
examination. That was my funding for most of my letter mail & I had
to still pay on my pitney bowes account and pay for postage up front
to keep the business running. So basically my cash flow died off,
and financially it wasn't worth it anymore.
Ladies I accepted a plea agreement, I can't state why. My attorney
has advised against that. However I can say that the plea was drawn
up by the prosecuter, that I couldn't challenge anything in it, that
I had to accept their claim, which is what you read. If I did
challenge, I was not entitled to the deal they offered up. I could
have fought it, and who knows maybe even won. But the turmoil I
would have placed my family in, the legal issues that would have drug
out for years, wouldn't have been good for anyone. I can say that by
accepting the horrible things they said about me and my business
practice was very hard to stomach, but doing so will make it much
easier on my children and family. To me that was a no brainer. My
personal comfort or my children's life. I will rebuild my
reputation, and won't have to rebuild my children's shattered lives.
I have a wonderful attorney who is trying to work his magic at
keeping me out of prison. What they posted, is the worst case
sinario, and it sounds really really horrible. I am sorry for all
the drama that has found it's way here due to this. I pray the judge
does right for all parties involved, and that I have the strength to
handle his decision.
This has been a long old road for me. This made front page in my
local paper, local tv news, the baltimore paper (which is the article
you read) and all over the internet groups. I have many very
supportive friends and family. The community I live in has been
great, as they have all known me since birth, and know what type of
person I am, and that you can't sum a person up by one event in their
life.
I had the hard chore of telling my children today, since it hit the
papers. We were hoping to wait until the April Court date to do this,
but felt it was better to address this now. It was the hardest thing
I have ever had to do. When you have to tell your children that
something mommie has done is now going to effect their lives in such
a horrible fashion. And reguardless of my crime, or what you read in
the paper, the truth here is, my biggest crime, is hurting my
friends,associates, family and most of all my children. For that I
will never forgive myself.
I want to aplogize to you guys, as I have done with everyone else
referenced above for any effect my actions have on your lives in any
way. As I never wanted to hurt anyone. I am not doing this cause I
have to or that I feel it will make me look better. I am doing this
as I feel I need to. When you have people in your life, that care
about you as much as I have found people in my life do, it is only
the right thing to do.
Once again, thank you all for your loyal support as my customers &
friends. I thank god for the support daily. Sometimes a kind word
means more than a million bucks, or in the prosectors words,
$251,000.00. lol
Thanks again and God Bless